we do not wage war as the world does

The darkness surrounds me as I fall farther and farther down. Helplessly falling into the unknown, down and down there’s nothing to grab hold of to stop my falling. All there is to do but wait until I hit the bottom so I can get back up and start over again……………

This past week has been… well I’ve been under a lot of spiritually warfare and if I couldn’t of been anymore stupid to realize last night that, that’s what was going on. Anyways it was like I was falling and I was helpless to do anything about it. I wish I could say that I was strong under this warfare but I wasn’t I was losing badly.

Last night when my eyes where open to what was happening I cried out to God and this morning too and wow what a difference already. The freshness of it all.

Church was church today, because of the storm last night some of the church had no power, we had no sound system and no lights. But we still had church it was great we all sat on one side all together worshiping and hearing the teaching, and soaking in Gods presence and words. And for once the sermon was something we could apply to our daily life. I went out for lunch with some of my friends who are older saints. It was great we were talking about church and how good it was, and just that they want more at church. I’m not alone in my longing for more. I got to see the most beautiful thing today, after church on the way out I saw 2 fawns, with their spots still. Wow it was amazing. Also one of my older friends gave me a word of encouragement, a much needed word at that.

I tell ya I am so grateful for the older women friends from church, they are hungry for God and seek Him, and long for the Spirit of God to move in our church.
Well I will live this with saying that I am on the way to taking back the ground that the enemy got away from me.

For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses to demolish strongholds.
2 Corinthians 10:3,4