Crashing Down
Out of nowhere the punches come, landing one after another, again and again. The force throwing me to the ground as they continue to come down on me, an end nowhere in sight.
The thoughts of ugly, fat, not wanted, unattractive, poor teacher, failure, stupid, slow to speech, dumb, bad friend, stupid, pour in on me with the force of a waterfall crashing down.
Helplessly I struggle to stay afloat to just keep my head above and survive, to find one last sliver of hope to grasp onto. The desire to get out is crushed with each new wave that keeps flooding in, my strength is spent, my sight is clouded, encouragement lost.
Holding on to the little I have left, I float and wait.
posted by Sarah @ 10:50 PM
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2 Comments:
Hey....
We're always harder on ourselves than anyone else, aren't we? I don't have an answer for you, only a principle. When we allow ourselves to think that way, it only drags us down like a whirlpool. For the things that aren't in your control, give yourself a break. For the things that are in your control, do something about them. And I leave you with this "In conclusion, brothers, focus your thoughts on what is true, noble, righteous, pure, lovable or admirable, on some virtue or on something praiseworthy. Keep doing what you have learned and received from me, what you have heard and seen me doing; then the God who gives shalom (peace, safety, well-being, welfare, health, contentment, success, comfort, wholeness and integrity) will be with you." I love you Sarah. I'll be back on July 10th.
Sometimes only a "little" is all we have left to hang on to. Keep on sister! I'm sorry you're going through this, but try to remember it really is only for a season. I can't tell you how short or how long it will last, but God has not forsaken you. And there are many people out there who love you like crazy. Much love!
t - y.
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