Gods always working

Oh my gosh, it really seemed like my world was falling down around me and I I could do nothing to stop it.

On Wednesday I was rushing to finish my homework once I had gotten home from work and I did complete it, I then remembered to check the messages on the answering machine. There was a message about my grandma, she fell and was taken to the Hospital. And that she had broken her hip. Since my Parents are at camp this week I had to try and get a hold of them. Luckily the camp number was at our house and I was able to leave a message for them to phone me. I had a number of people phone me asking about grandma or telling me more information. Mom did phone that night so I was able to let her know hat had happened to grandma. I was told that she would either go for surgery the next day or in 7 days depending on what drugs they could or could not give her. On Friday mom phoned me to tell me that grandma was going for surgery. Man I really don’t know what to expect now, grandma has been going down hill the last few years and I just don’t know what this will do to her, she has been doing better in the last little while since what she was going through but now this fall and the surgery….. What going to happen I just don’t know. I’ll find out tomorrow (Sunday) how grandma is doing since the surgery.

Also, earlier in the week I had emailed IBC the school I had applied at to go to this fall. On Wednesday, I got an email from them, they hadn’t received either of my reference forms. One I knew might not of been there but the other one should have been. I was freaking out since time was running out and there are things I need to get in order and forms that need to be filled out by cretin dates and I was a big mess trying to get the ball going again. Luckily the enrolment guy likes me and wants me to be there so he phoned one of my references and is going to phone the other one shortly I should know sometime this week if I am going or not.

Ok so in short it all started with everything going a-rye but now things aren’t so crazy and Church was good, which brings me to another revelation;
For awhile now I’ve been feeling that something’s got to change in church. And we had a guest speaker at church today, an old school pastor who preached from the word and the word, none of this stuff we are use to hearing now a days. So I said all that to say that I am thinking that we need our preachers to preach like the classic preaches preached. From the word with the word and only the word. And preaching the truth even if its hard to hear. Because its what we need to hear at times.
Pastor Bus’s message was good, it was from John 5:17. He told us that God is always working. Among other things he challenged us to work with God, because God wants to work in us and through us. And even when we are old and retired we still have work in God to do. Ok ok ok I like didn’t word it as good as he did but if you want the tape it only cost like 3 bucks just let me know.
But its ture God is always working, just look at my last few days and how God has worked things out.

Girls Night Out

Me and my friend planed a night out for us and we invited some of our other friends, they weren’t able to come so me and Jen had fun, we went to the movie, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. It is so good, I cried, I laughed, and I saw little pieces of myself in each girl. Which was a little scary.

One of the girls in the movie meets this guy on her trip, and she find herself falling for him and it scares her, she doesn’t know how to love someone, and close to the end of her trip she finale tells him that she loves me. And her expression I will never forget it was one of I’ve let my guard down, I could get hurt, I’m scared but it will be worth it. And that’s kinda what I am feeling or will be feeling sometime kinda soon.
If you remember a few blogs ago about that guy that I didn’t know what was going on, well we talked and got everything figured out, and we are hanging out for right now, working on being friends first and then see what happens, either way I know I will get to know a great guy and get to become good friends with him. That’s all for now about that.

we do not wage war as the world does

The darkness surrounds me as I fall farther and farther down. Helplessly falling into the unknown, down and down there’s nothing to grab hold of to stop my falling. All there is to do but wait until I hit the bottom so I can get back up and start over again……………

This past week has been… well I’ve been under a lot of spiritually warfare and if I couldn’t of been anymore stupid to realize last night that, that’s what was going on. Anyways it was like I was falling and I was helpless to do anything about it. I wish I could say that I was strong under this warfare but I wasn’t I was losing badly.

Last night when my eyes where open to what was happening I cried out to God and this morning too and wow what a difference already. The freshness of it all.

Church was church today, because of the storm last night some of the church had no power, we had no sound system and no lights. But we still had church it was great we all sat on one side all together worshiping and hearing the teaching, and soaking in Gods presence and words. And for once the sermon was something we could apply to our daily life. I went out for lunch with some of my friends who are older saints. It was great we were talking about church and how good it was, and just that they want more at church. I’m not alone in my longing for more. I got to see the most beautiful thing today, after church on the way out I saw 2 fawns, with their spots still. Wow it was amazing. Also one of my older friends gave me a word of encouragement, a much needed word at that.

I tell ya I am so grateful for the older women friends from church, they are hungry for God and seek Him, and long for the Spirit of God to move in our church.
Well I will live this with saying that I am on the way to taking back the ground that the enemy got away from me.

For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses to demolish strongholds.
2 Corinthians 10:3,4

The Worst Day

If things couldnt of gotten anymore worse, Today just sucked so much, I got bleach on my shirt cuz a kid bumped me when I was bringing out the bleach/water solution for the toothbrushes, I got phatom pee on me, I still have no idea how I got it on me, I know it wasnt me, all the kids where dry and there was no pee puddles. talk about gross, my toe hurts and my co-woker is always in a bad mood, no matter what you do or how good of a job you do shes is always pissed. and since this guy still hasnt phoned I am thinking hes not intrested even though he lead me to believe that he did. and that really suck's I started.... well never mind that doesnt matter anymore. and this weekend is going to suck I have nothing to do. its the phatom pee I tell ya.... ok ok maybe its not that phatom pee but I like saying it, its funny.... ok ok when you work with kids these things are funny.